My name is Mariana and I could only call my CBD Mariana :-)
I am a middle-aged woman suffering from fibromyalgia, but despite everything I manage to have a fairly normal life, all thanks to CBD.
The story begins in July 2005 when I felt the first pains and weakness of the hands. I couldn't hold anything in my hand. It goes without saying how scared I was.
Here begins an 11-year history of wrong visits, tests and diagnosis. While the doctors claimed it was a carpal tunnel, I was pejorative. The pains spread all over my body: arms, back, neck, legs, feet, severe migraines, digestive problems, abdominal swelling ... They found me hernias but the MRI did not show anything to worry about and I kept wondering why all this pain ... a really strange pain that ran through my body several times during the day and honestly I could not answer the questions: Where do you hurt? When they ask me the question maybe I feel it on my shoulders and at the moment of answering it has moved to my feet along the entire back and legs. Yes, exactly like that… like the high speed train.
During the day it was hard to deal with all the work problems, children, housework. I felt increasingly weak and incapable. It happened that I could not even hold the cutlery and therefore be fed by my husband or my children.
The night was very long when I couldn't sleep and my body was paralyzed.
One day, it was in 2010, I booked a visit to another private rheumatologist, and after various tests he claims that I have arthritis. Start the treatment with medicines, cortisone and injections. After the first course of treatment, when I told him that I have not had any improvement, he decided that then it is not just arthritis but more fibromyalgia. What is Fibromyalgia? "Here lady, we still don't know what exactly it is but to make you feel better I prescribe these antidepressants." Antidepressants ??? To me??? But I'm not depressed !!! I know, there are many fibromyalgia sufferers who fall into deep depression, but in this case it is only a consequence of a life full of continuous pain without respite. Normal isn't it? But I am grateful for being a very strong person who never lets himself get depressed, puts responsibilities first and fights. I couldn't afford to let this syndrome break me down.
It goes without saying that I have never taken any antidepressants and have continued my research to the right and best prepared doctor. So one day a woman advised me the rheumatology department head of a hospital in Turin and how to book an emergency visit. I go again full of hope and here I find the Doctor. Have you ever seen Doctor House? Here, it reminded me a lot of him. He had that slightly crazy look but at the same time intelligent and very different certainty than all the ones I've seen over the years. Complete visit lasting about an hour in the presence of all the doctors in the ward who were on duty that day. The conclusion was: FIBROMYALGIA without any doubt: 18/18 tender points. I immediately asked myself: What now? Are they offering me antidepressants again? No! A doctor kindly asked me to sit down and started explaining what exactly it is, how it usually goes wild. She asked questions if I accidentally had severe stress which may be causing it.
Here, only that day, after 11 years, I was able to understand what was happening with my body and that unfortunately for the moment I had nothing left but to put my soul in peace that I have to live with these hallucinating and debilitating pains.
A year later I moved with my family to the UK for various reasons but I also find that I feel a little better, because the climate is much more moderate (no too cold temperatures, no sultry heat that multiplied the pain). My happiness, however, was for a little while because, even if I felt a little better as pain, the disease continued its path and a few months later the ugliest of the ugly beasts that are part of this syndrome arrived: FIBRO FOG. Total fog in the head, as if I were floating on gray clouds and detached from the real world. Who I am, what my name is, I didn't understand anything! I wanted to say something but I had a block and nothing came out of my mouth. Total confusion! Panic! Tiredness and frustration! What was going on? I thought I had known all the facets of this beast called fibromyalgia by now but apparently I was wrong.
And here came my savior, my super husband who has never scolded me, has always believed in me, and has always managed to hide his concern and help and keep me in good spirits. Well, he taught me positivism. Seeing myself getting worse again, and this time my mind was in danger, he did his research and found my SALVATION. Without telling me anything, he secretly ordered CBD. I remember well that day in May 2018, when I was lying in bed in full fog, I heard the bell and after a while my husband came to me with a bottle saying: “Try it! If it doesn't help you at least it won't hurt you! " With so much effort I get out of bed, take the bottle and put a drop on my tongue. Strange, new taste ... the time to understand what it is and only after 5 minutes my vision cleared. Those who wear glasses will understand me. You see everything blurry and you feel disoriented, put on your glasses and wow, you can see! Miracle!
In a few days I had to do some experiments to figure out what is the optimal dose for me. Currently I take a whole pipette (around 10 drops) in the morning and one in the evening of CBD Mariana and I can face the day with all the commitments and sleep better. The pains continue, perhaps not as severe as before, but CBD, believe me, is a miracle for fibro fog. I do not deny that there are days when those 2 doses are not enough and I still have to take a few drops during the day, but at least now I know how to manage this problem I am no longer afraid.
This is my story and this is why I believe so much in CBD.
I created CBD Mariana with the hope of being able to help many of you to take your life back in your hands.
Never give up! As my husband says: If it doesn't help, it doesn't hurt! ... but I am now the witness that CBD helps and also a lot. Two and a half years have passed since then and I am here managing 2 companies, helping a third, managing home, family.
I have learned that the solutions are there for everything. Just never stop looking for them.
Mariana, fibromyalgia suffer who fought the fibro fog